I don’t know what it is lately. But, I could care less what people think of me. And honestly, I’ve been waiting for this moment my entire life. Looking at me you might think I have a confident, strong and healthy ego. Don’t let the tattoos fool you. The truth is, I have been plagued with confidence issues most of my life. And seeking approval from others is something I’m embarrassed to admit I’ve always needed. I’m not sure why I’ve been this way and I really don’t care. For me it’s not about the “why” – I’m not looking to blame.
It’s about the how. How can I improve as a person? How can I become more confident? How can I become a better pilates instuctor? How can I become a better nutritional counselor? How can I help more women release the unwanted weight and take better care of themselves? How can I reach out more to women entrepreneurs? How can I become better, stronger and more confident at all of my pursuits?
This is why I continue to “put myself out there.” I know that the more I step into the unknown the more I’m forced to be uncomfortable. The more I’m forced to be uncomfortable, the more I’m forced to learn. The more I’m forced to learn, the more I grow. The more I grow, the closer I’ll get to that ultimate state of bliss.
By forcing myself through this process – I peel the old layers of low self-esteem and lack of confidence away. This is where the sweet satisfying feeling of success comes. This is when I want to high five myself, pat myself on the back or treat myself to a mani/pedi.
Thank God for fear facing! I vow to never sacrifice my own ideals for those of others. I’ve got to be me, to be free.